Today I enjoyed breakfast with my brother and sister in law, Gabe and Julie, at a breakfast place in Fayetteville that Josh and I found and have enjoyed often. It was fun to experience this place with them and even see Josh’s brother order a meal Josh has often ordered and loved - Huevos Rancheros - Josh loved a big messy breakfast with flavor.
As we met, I shared about the first time we went there for my 40th birthday. It was a great morning then and still today.
There are times when I wonder if I bringing up Josh too much? But typically think, “No” and share a story about him anyway. But talking about Josh is still hard at times and even mentioning his name feels delicate. Will talking about him hurt or fill us with joy? No matter I don’t want to forget the great moments together or stop sharing our stories of life, adventure, meals, etc.
I enjoy getting to share some places with others - making new memories. And still there are other spots that I am not quite ready to embrace yet.
As always, it’s a day by day process without joyful moments mixed easily with sad thoughts too - much like a bit messy breakfast plate.
Hi! It's Jenn Brown, writing my story that is now slightly different as we enter a season of new grief. On September 30, 2019, my dear husband Josh passed away after battling brain cancer.