Maybe today there won’t be a weird moment? I can wish for this daily but also can’t be shocked when it happens, again.
I had to “share the news” four times today (Wednesday) with work acquaintances who didn’t know and were just curious to know why I had been out of the office. I could say I was traveling, which is true but a tad incomplete. :)
This is made even more awkward when also alongside my coworker who likes to inform people she has been out because she had a baby. This is good news, for her, but not so much for me as then I have follow up with either silence or explain why I have also been out - bleh!
Talk about juxtaposition.
I often just want to run from the room or say something not professional but instead I hold as much restraint as possible in that moment and stay calm.
It’s like that British phrase, “Keep Calm and Carry On!” By the way, in a quick fact check I learned that 2.45 million copies of that poster were printed but few displayed. The purpose was to help raise morale as WWII began. That’s a lot of expectation for a poster.
Regardless, I wonder what it might look like if I had 2.45 million copies of that sign to hang up around my house or office space. Maybe that would be easier than sharing my weird, sad news all the time. As I think about this, I’m think I may need to get a copy of this sign for my desk. I do have one hanging that says "Everything is going to be ok" that I got on a trip to a shop near Tahoe with Josh. It's a fun reminder of him and that adventure :)
Because of God I really can face these new challenges and be “ok” but they are still challenging.
I saved another “verse of the day” once again. It's a good one for a day when I feel a little depleted.
“He gives strength to the weary, and to him who lacks might He increase power.”
- Isaiah 40:29 (NASB)
This is, of course, not about me becoming the “all-powerful, amazing Jenn” who processes things so great. Instead it’s about me leaning back into God’s strength in times when I feel like crawling under a desk.
Hi! It's Jenn Brown, writing my story that is now slightly different as we enter a season of new grief. On September 30, 2019, my dear husband Josh passed away after battling brain cancer.