So many thoughts today but the big one really was looking out over the area called Layers of Life at Rainbow Curve in Rocky Mountain National Park.
Each of our lives have layers of hills, valleys, beauty, heartache and details that we cannot even recognize. Seeing the spectacular view today reminded me of the many times I had been in this same park and various mountain top moments Josh and I have had literally and even figuratively.
I miss him being on this mountain top trip today. There are times on the drive that I still imagine him riding alongside me. It’s nice to have pups on the drive but they aren’t quite as impressed by changes in scenery or as talkative.
All my scenic detours, while worth it, made for a long day, and a late night arrival at my KOA cabin in Douglas, Wyoming. Pulling up, I met some other campers and share a bit of my story which of course kind of caught them by surprise - especially since they are my age. It’s weird at times, that I can actually talk about Josh, and “what happened” in kind of reporter-like fashion. I, of course, have many emotions connected to our story but can temporarily take a break to share the info. I had arrived hoping to just go to bed but instead spent like 45 minute talking to strangers around a campfire. I guess that’s part of the adventure too.
My prayer tonight as I rest in this cozy cabin is that God will be seen in and through all of this - that people might even be drawn into his love in a bigger, brighter way - much like the bright moon shining over the Wyoming night sky.
Hi! It's Jenn Brown, writing my story that is now slightly different as we enter a season of new grief. On September 30, 2019, my dear husband Josh passed away after battling brain cancer.